You look to others for strength and validation, seemingly giving your power away. When you deny your inherent abilities, others begin to take advantage of you; sometimes even disrespecting you because if you can’t respect yourself, why should they?
You are concerned about what kind of responsibilities you might have if you accept your gifts. Plus,you are afraid of being seen by others when you use those gifts! What if you said something, or did something different! Shock, horror!
Here is a wonderful meditation for you to use to help you find your belief in yourself:-
Find a comfortable position and close your eyes.
Allow your breathing to deepen, and your mind and body to relax.
Imagine that it is now night-time, and that you are on the top of a hill looking out over the ocean.
The full moon has just risen and the moonlight itself shimmers on the water.
You gaze at the moon for a long time.
The moonlight is powerful but soft, and looking at it makes you feel calm and happy.
As you watch, the moon now begins to get brighter and brighter, so bright that you can barely look at it. Gradually, it changes to become Quan Yin herself. Her whole body is surrounded by a glowing aureole, or orb, which glows softly out from her.
She stand on a lotus that floats on the waves.
At the sight of you, she smiles a beautiful smile, and tears of happiness shine in her eyes.
Imagine now her radiance filling you from top to bottom with her strength, her peace and her compassion. They are becoming a part of you. If you repeat her name in your mind, your mind will be calm and she will stay with you. Do this now.
She smiles at you again and you smile back in gratitude. You receive her love and her belief in you within your heart, and it begins to believe in you too. It seems so easy. You start to know that you can use whatever gifts you have with calmness and ease. It is all okay. You are always loved.
Finally, it is time for her to leave, and she becomes smaller and smaller until only the moon and the moonlight on the water remain in front of you.
Then, the sea and the sky vanish too, and you rest now in contemplation of the beautiful, empty space that is left.
Let yourself become that space.
Feel this space surrounding you and protecting you and nourishing your inner soul.
You are loved indeed.
Know that Quan Yin will stay with you and you may call on her whenever you wish.
It is time now to come back, back into your body when you are ready. Slowly stretch your arms and legs and open your eyes and look at the world around you. Take a deep breath in and slowly out.
So, welcome to the Light! Here, you learn that you cannot force life to bend around you. You need instead to understand that all of the resources you will ever need are built within your very being and that what you choose to do with them affects the entirety of creation….
Your heart is the absolute centre from where all your giving and receiving flows. Leap into each moment with your heart wide open and absolutely no expectations!
You are the only one who doesn’t truly believe in your gifts. Only your perceptions can put you at risk of not using them. Our Earth needs people to step into their gifts, whatever they may be. Respect is earned when you stand firmly in the knowledge of what you can do, and who you are…
After all, what little you know is still far more than someone else can even comprehend.
Believe in you….
Once you do, so will everyone else…
Angel Hugs, (You are Beloved more than you know!)
Barbara
PS: I KNOW this meditation works, because as I was writing it and being at One with it (Kinda doing it in my head!) I fell asleep! Dozed off for a nano-second! Worst part was that I must’ve had my finger on the back arrow key, and I erased the entire beginning of my blog for today! Had to start all over again! Hee! Hee! So, please enjoy it…just like I did!
Finding Mastery by Barbara Lockhart 
This meditation taught me and helped me a lot . Thank